And yeah call me insecure, low self esteem...the need to validate myself or my intentions known...call it a medical condition...psychological condition...
You can just stick to, "unintelligent". That will do.
Tuesday, November 8, 2016
Continuation
Also to add on, I have removed quite a number of groups from my life.
Actually just 2.
The first being the religious side of friends, and the music side.
I do not need you, neither do you need me. We lead our happy lives ever after.
Good morning.
Actually just 2.
The first being the religious side of friends, and the music side.
I do not need you, neither do you need me. We lead our happy lives ever after.
Good morning.
Its been a little while
I checked on my view counter and it shows 27. Who the hell reads my blog? I've actually removed my blog URL from all of my social media accounts so whoever is reading this, you're either my ex girlfriend, a random internet surfer or a stalker who has nothing better to do.
I will be clear on this, this is my space to rant so don't expect anything intelligent.
There was a reason why I left, I was not exactly a good person. I was not smart, I lack leadership skills, the initiative, the "out of the box" thinking and nobody likes my personality.
The people that do make friends with me back there, they were probably just being nice but on the standard, I got no respect from anyone, not even the young ones, because I was not entirely respectable in the first place.
There were many stories about me, as well as testimonials of how incapable I am. With the recent debacle that took place within the past 2 years, with all my private matters and personal life being shared, (not that it really matters now, its not really a big deal to them because, who actually gives a shit about me?) I was not entirely happy.
But apart from that, I have long wanted to move away from that phase of life. Yes, it was a good 7 years of friendship with me trying my best to fit in to the "clique". Thinking back, I have only encountered gossip and toxicity. So much for the dhamma sessions.
So yeah if you are reading this, and I know you are. Call me paranoid or "thinking too much" but the fact that this is being read by you guys, I won't really call myself either of the two, but simply just want to say...
Have a good life ahead. We will never meet again.
I will be clear on this, this is my space to rant so don't expect anything intelligent.
There was a reason why I left, I was not exactly a good person. I was not smart, I lack leadership skills, the initiative, the "out of the box" thinking and nobody likes my personality.
The people that do make friends with me back there, they were probably just being nice but on the standard, I got no respect from anyone, not even the young ones, because I was not entirely respectable in the first place.
There were many stories about me, as well as testimonials of how incapable I am. With the recent debacle that took place within the past 2 years, with all my private matters and personal life being shared, (not that it really matters now, its not really a big deal to them because, who actually gives a shit about me?) I was not entirely happy.
But apart from that, I have long wanted to move away from that phase of life. Yes, it was a good 7 years of friendship with me trying my best to fit in to the "clique". Thinking back, I have only encountered gossip and toxicity. So much for the dhamma sessions.
So yeah if you are reading this, and I know you are. Call me paranoid or "thinking too much" but the fact that this is being read by you guys, I won't really call myself either of the two, but simply just want to say...
Have a good life ahead. We will never meet again.
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